little sweet potato:sorry i lied..haha..it's not the interest,it's the knowing that the capability may not be enough to let u survive.haha...BUT..im ok:) and im willing to struggle.for now.

yawn..life is so sian...sooo so very sian that i start to think so much..and it is not good.im nineteen..should i consider this age old or still young? can i still play? pui..these kinda questions are fucked coz there is no definite answer..

but when i do have definite answers to some questions,sometimes,goshdamnfuck do i feel that i dun need them..coz they do not just make u demoralized,they make u paralyzed.

time.damn.we do not have a lot.
sick.yes.coz im the cause.

shit.