when familiarity makes the fuze shorter

when familiarity makes the fuze shorter, does it mark the beginning of forever? Or does it hint the need for something new?

we are all creatures of habit. there are definitely certain things we have to do, places we have to go everyday without fail. if something interrupted that certain routine, we will feel uneasy. you can say that you are not a creature of that sort,that you like change, you like the unpredicted...well i can tell you i like change, i like the unpredicted too, but i can't make do without a cup of coffee everyday. it's not the caffeine's working, it's just part of a process to complete my day. we are all creatures of habit, like it or not.

but...

when someone is involved in that everyday routine, wat happens?

if that someone is no longer part of that everyday routine, wat happens?

or wat if that someone is still part of that everyday routine but somehow it's making us not ourselves anymore, then wat happens?

we can't make the someone go away, because if we do, we will be missing that part of the process to complete our day; but if we don't make the someone go away, we might find ourselves losing ourselves as time goes by. which is more important, when both involve losing ourselves? catch22? does this qualify?

is this the very reason we find ourselves getting frustrated easier and faster the more familiar we get with the someone? because we know that the someone is one we so want to do without but cannot do without? therefore we nitpick every chance we get because this someone both defines us and destroys us? when familiarity makes the fuze shorter, does it mark the beginning of forever? Or does it hint the need for something new?

...or perhaps love?